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Originally Posted by Hostile
I wish there was a way I could tell you something that makes this easier, but there isn't. It is hard, but it is worse when someone is suffering. Steel yourself. Become stronger than you ever imagined you could like the sailor who is in those pictures was, and still is despite this disease.
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thank you my friend...I know you would do it too...anyway everytime I think I steeled myself and am ready I find I am not... I don't break down over the phone or anything...goodness knows I don't want to make it harder on him than it is...but after I hang up...I need to find a place to be alone...it causes me to toss and turn at night not knowing if there is something I should be doing or saying...well you know what I mean..its not like you haven't gone through this same crap. I have always hated goodbyes even if they were just short but I am lucky in that there are some folk who never got to say good bye but I got to do it with both of my parents...one has to take solace in the little things when the bigger things are unclear.
Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life: the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind. These passions, like great winds, have blown me hither and thither, in a wayward course, over a great ocean of anguish, reaching to the very verge of despair....Bertrand Russell
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