I would like you to meet my Dad

[Zaxor]

Originally Posted by SDogo

Zaxor, I can offer little comfort but while not there is physical presence, I walk with you in strength during this time.

thank you my friend

[cajuncocoa]

Originally Posted by Zaxor

thank you all...

just got more bad news the last test results are in

...its terminal it has spread they are giving him 3 to 6 months


part of me is....well all broken up and as sad as I hope to never be...

but another part of me knows that the last thing Dad would want is for me to make a fuss and I am sure that he would have hated to ever go into a retirement home if he couldn't ever take care of himself... if he makes it to his birthday he will be 88 he make think that has been long enough (not for me...but that is very selfish)...

I just don't know what to think my heart grieves and hurts but my head tells me not to...

I'll be adding your Dad to my prayer list.

And I will also pray for the strength you will need to be there for him.

[Zaxor]

Talked to Dad over the weekend he is in good spirits said its like waiting in line at the supermarket..told him to do me a favor and don't go over to the express checkout unless he is hurting.

but I swear its like ripping the heart out of me everytime we talk.

[Hostile]

Originally Posted by Zaxor

Talked to Dad over the weekend he is in good spirits said its like waiting in line at the supermarket..told him to do me a favor and don't go over to the express checkout unless he is hurting.

but I swear its like ripping the heart out of me everytime we talk.

I wish there was a way I could tell you something that makes this easier, but there isn't. It is hard, but it is worse when someone is suffering. Steel yourself. Become stronger than you ever imagined you could like the sailor who is in those pictures was, and still is despite this disease.

[Zaxor]

Originally Posted by Hostile

I wish there was a way I could tell you something that makes this easier, but there isn't. It is hard, but it is worse when someone is suffering. Steel yourself. Become stronger than you ever imagined you could like the sailor who is in those pictures was, and still is despite this disease.

thank you my friend...I know you would do it too...anyway everytime I think I steeled myself and am ready I find I am not... I don't break down over the phone or anything...goodness knows I don't want to make it harder on him than it is...but after I hang up...I need to find a place to be alone...it causes me to toss and turn at night not knowing if there is something I should be doing or saying...well you know what I mean..its not like you haven't gone through this same crap. I have always hated goodbyes even if they were just short but I am lucky in that there are some folk who never got to say good bye but I got to do it with both of my parents...one has to take solace in the little things when the bigger things are unclear.

[Hostile]

Originally Posted by Zaxor

thank you my friend...I know you would do it too...anyway everytime I think I steeled myself and am ready I find I am not... I don't break down over the phone or anything...goodness knows I don't want to make it harder on him than it is...but after I hang up...I need to find a place to be alone...it causes me to toss and turn at night not knowing if there is something I should be doing or saying...well you know what I mean..its not like you haven't gone through this same crap. I have always hated goodbyes even if they were just short but I am lucky in that there are some folk who never got to say good bye but I got to do it with both of my parents...one has to take solace in the little things when the bigger things are unclear.

IMO that is healthy. Don't stop giving yourself the right to grieve.

[Juke99]

Just now seeing this...I've been right there, same spot, over the last few months.

Impossibly difficult to process.

There's not much anyone can say other than to let you know, you are embraced by all of us here...and that we'll keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

[Idgit]

Thanks for bumping it, Juke. I hadn't seen it either. Zaxor, my thoughts and prayers are with your family.

[Arch Stanton]

Zax, I am so sorry to read about your dad. My thoughts are with you and your family at this time. I lost both of my parents during the last few years....Hostiles' post struck a chord with me. It's very good advice.

[Zaxor]

I thank you most heartily gentlemen

Juke I know you said something awhile back about your dad yours and mine was born the same year

Arch hate to hear that my friend

[GroundUp]

I shed a tear for you today and I'll pray for you tonight. Tomorrow we will rise and walk together. God bless