I think I messed up big time. And I can't talk to my friends or family about it and it is killing me. The moment I open my mouth, I am in trouble My wife and kids are on vacation overseas. And I was on a business trip. Me and my colleague got drunk and ended up kissing etc. No sex. We just messed around. And now I feel awful. I am married for 13 years. I never cheated on my wife and kissed another girl or anything. I feel like I have to tell her and apologize, on the other hand I am afraid of her reaction. What if she divorces me. I am a mess. I was sober up until a few days. Opened up a bottle of wine and started drinking, I feel like ****. Man this is hard. I feel like choking,. Please tell me a few good things. Please don't judge me. I know I messed up and I hate myself right now.