Ben, I'm so sorry. My heart aches for you. Nothing hurts like the hurt you are feeling today. She is written on your soul, Ben. She will always be with you. One day I'll hold my son again, just like you'll hold your baby again. Times like these change us as men. To be honest with you, my friend, my experience weakened me. Yet through that weakness I found strength I never knew I had. There will be times you'll be a pillar for your wife, while she'll be your rock. Lean on one another, let the Lord comfort you. Above all my friend, Pray.