Hostile;2658308 said:
Get it off your chest if you wish. A lot of us do.
My now ex bf of 11 months just up and stopped talking to me after Valentine's Day. I have asked in email and on voicemail what is going on and if it is over and WHY is it over and he won't give me an answer. I need some sort of closure. The not knowing is killing me. I can move and can get pissed off it's another woman, I can
try and understand if he just doesn't love me anymore, and I can understand if he is moving, but not knowing hurts more than anything. It is so hard to move on when you don't know. I know this because I went through the exact same thing about 4 years ago and it took me until I met Nate to fall in love and trust another guy again. I rebelled and dated some bad guys and knew they were and went down a very bad path emotionally.
Today I changed my relationship status even though I was prepared it was over a couple of weeks ago. If he can't be man enough to tell me after 11 months with not even so much as a fight in those 11 months than I have to move on. Closure would help in that moving on process, but I don't think I am going to get it.
I have removed all pictures, contacts, etc. so I'm not tempted. I know I deserve better. Still doesn't make the hurt go away. I barely sleep or eat anything and I cry more often than not. I adore his parents and his family as they do me and talking to his sister in law she probably bets no one knows. I haven't had the heart to tell my parents yet as they loved him too. My brother in Vegas knows and offered to have one of his friends come kick his butt for me. Such a brother thing to do.
It is such a cold and heartless thing to do. There are so many things I want to say to him, but I would just be wasting my breath. It's over. I was good to him. Probably too good to him. He was going to get spoiled for his birthday and our anniversary coming up in March, but it's all going back now.
I'm an emotional wreck, but getting better. I am heartbroken to say the least. I'm a foggy mess trying to do my school work or anything constructive. I work out a little bit, but the energy is pretty low for it. I know it will get better over time, but this completely sucks!!