I'm a smoker. Smokes were around a buck a pack (Marlboro Lights) when I started and are now about 6 bucks where I live. I started casually smoking in the mid 80s, and quit a few times along the way with babies and all. I didn't really hit it hard until after my mother died in '09, when I soared up to around a pack and a half a day (sissy compared to some I know, lol), but I have worked it down now to around a pack a day. I would love to quit, but haven't found the ability or courage to yet. There are a thousand reasons to quit everyday, but also a thousand reasons (excuses, really) not to. There is always something that makes you excited, makes you upset, makes you get out of bed, makes you breathe.....and all of these things make you want a smoke. They say just eat something like a carrot when you want a smoke. I call BS on that. I have always been the biggest salad/vegetable lover of anyone I've known, and as soon as I'm through with that healthy salad, the first thing I want is a cigarette, just like when I finish that fantastic juicy hamburger or delicious bowl of ice cream. lol.
They call it a cop out. I know, they are right. I have thought about getting patches or gum, but ironically enough, I am afraid that the nicotine levels in those will make me feel sick. Or worse, cause my heart to freak out. As bad as it sounds (and I know it is awful), I really feel
safer just smoking. I guess I feel trapped. I don't know how to quit safely. Maybe it's more of a "safety blanket" feeling that I am afraid to let go of. But, it is on my mind every day, and I know I will get there eventually. Maybe I am just not ready yet.
But vaping is out of the question for me, just like Red Bull and other energy drinks/shots are, and all of the strong designer coffees and double, triple, quadruple "coccamoccacremachinos and lattes" etc. Lol. Those things are scary to an oldie like me. I know, I live in irony and contradiction, but I am comfortable here, set in my old fogey stogey ways! Just give me my old skool plain coffee, my American beer, and my traditional smokes!

(at myself lol)