I'm not trying to judge you or question your level of fan committment, but it sounds like you want them to win and hope that they win, but many of us choose to believe they will win. You may be in a healthier mental state because if they lose, you can be disappointed for a while and then say "Oh well, I didn't expect them to win anyway" while I will be crushed and in a bad mood for a long time. That doesn't make me a bigger fan than you, but I do think that risking the emotional lows makes the elation of winning stronger.