Don't be so hard on yourself....I haven't commented on it, that should say it all. While I don't make excuses for him and he deserves, probably more than he'll get, I'm no one to talk, before I quit drinking almost 3 years ago, I would drive after having a few at the country club, about a mile away, and many more than a few on my way home from a club or friend's place at 3 or 4 in the morning. I was lucky, many aren't. The older we get, the more, most of us grow up. Now, drinking or not, I still enjoy a little dust up, now and then, especially with the haters.