I am sure Ron will be back as soon as his head begins to clear. I went through it but I had a year to prepare for it and was still a basket case and unable to fix on one thought but if I did, that was the only thought I could focus on. It truly becomes a one foot in front of the other existence for a while. This was unexpected and I can only imagine the additional overwhelming effect of that. I do believe that takes some additional time to deal with that part of it. Ron, even if it's difficult to respond right now, you are in our hearts. Just know this, wherever you are right now, that is temporary. I know it feels as if life has ended and the grief is so strong that it's hard to breathe but that will subside in time. One thing that kept me going was repeating to myself, even out loud, "what would she want me to do"? I fixed myself on that over and over and it helped.