Certain somewhat insignificant details left out for my own protection
When I was ~13 I began a darker phase in my life. I'm not sure if it was curiousity, boredom, certain people I started interacting with or a combination of all three but I started becoming more and more interested in the "darker" aspects of occultism. I began reading certain books and listening to certain types of music, the more I "researched" the more obsessed I became.
Over the course of probably a year, I felt myself becoming darker and more "evil" and I loved it! (Ugh, this creeps me out just talking about it which I rarely do). I became more distanced from my family and began feeling almost super human. The deeper I got, the stronger the feelings and thoughts. I began having very vivid and dark dreams. As I continued my "research"/practices I started noticing my entire personality was changing, as did others. I would look at people differently and act differently and if I ever told anyone the thoughts that were going through my mind I would probably have been arrested or committed.
Eventually, things in "real" life started to happen. If you believe in coincidences or have read the Celestine Prophecy then you know what I'm talking about. I would randomly meet certain people that were in the same mindset I was, some more experienced and some less. I would come across other "signs" that reinforced my beliefs. At first it was "cool" and "fun" until one night that ended it all and forced me to put an end to everything.
As I said, things were picking up not only in my thoughts and dreams but real life. I always slept with my door closed. After a few months, I would wake up and my bedroom door would be open. At first I didn't think much of it, maybe it was the cat or my dad checking on me to make sure I didn't sneak out in the middle of the night. It kept happening every night and eventually did start to piss me off so I asked my mom and dad if they were checking on me. They told me "no" but I was skeptical so I started locking the door. Again, I would wake up and the door would be open.
This went on for another few weeks and directly coincided with my deeper involvement in the darker side of the occult. It started freaking me out a bit but these door locks were very easy to pick (think hole in the middle of knob, insert wire hanger, press button, open sesame) so I still wasn't convinced it wasn't my parents until...one night I woke up in the middle of the night and standing in my doorway was a sillouhette of a man in a suit, holding a briefcase but had a cross between a fedora and top hat on (kind of like the image on the cover of the Exorcist which I had never even seen to this point). He was just standing there staring at me. I was definitely awake and literally hid under my covers. I couldn't sleep, started sweating and shaking a little. I literally stayed under the covers until the sun came up and it was time to go to school.
I got up and still felt like someone was watching me like never before. I ran downstairs as fast as I could to take a shower. I honestly couldn't even close me eyes because I was so scared. I ran back upstairs and hung around my brother, while he was getting ready, until it was time to go. I redused to be by myself. He even knew I was acting strange but I never said why. My parents had already gone to work and my brother and I attended the same school (a private Christian school, go figure, lol) so he would drive us there.
I couldn't wait to get out of the house and go to school. As he was driving, blasting his music, I was still scared as hell and just kept looking staright forward trying to figure out what the hell happened. It wasn't a dream, it was real. I thought maybe it was my dad but he didn't wear hats, especially like the one I saw, and he wouldn't be going to work in the middle of the night. As I stared ahead, we came to a stoplight at a somewhat urban intersection. I felt like I wanted to vomit, a feeling came over me that scared me more then I already was, if that was possible. I didn't want to look anywhere but straight, like when you have a feeling you're being watched but NEED to look to confirm it's all just in your head, so I HAD to look.
While the light was red, I slowly turned my head to the right and standing there by himself on the street corner was a man wearing a suit, holding a briefcase, wearing the same style hat as the male silloutte in my doorway and he was staring straight at me, right into my eyes. I just about **** myself (my heart is pounding right now, just talking about it) and turned my head forward in a snap. I saw him long enough to see he was wearing a grey suit, holding a black briefcase and had a closely shaven beard. My brother obviously didn't know a thing, just kept jamming to his music but as we drove off I kept my head straight and looked in the passenger side mirror. The man just stood there, his head turned slowly and he kept looking at us drive away until we were out of sight.
The minute I got home, I got rid of everything I had that was related to what I was doing and immediately started praying to a different god. Nothing happened after that but looking back, it still scares me to death. I was raised Christian but am now more or less agnostic depending on the day of the week but I do believe in good and evil and that something else is out there. If it weren't for that experience and a few others I would probably just be an atheist. Sometimes I still try to chalk it up to it was "just a dream" but it wasn't and neither was the "man" at the stoplight. Perhaps it was just a series of coincidences that I let my imagination run with and ironically stopped as soon as I stopped. I don't know, I'm just telling you what happened. It also still disturbs me the thoughts that went through my mind at the time in my life. Maybe I was just a raging teenager or maybe there were outside "forces" at play. I can tell you this, looking back I didn't even feel like myself, it was as if I were a completely different person.
Hope you enjoyed.
PS All or parts of this story may or may not be made up