By Jesse Holley (with Fish)
I got a chance to have dinner with Josh Brent a few days ago, in advance of his meeting with NFL commissioner Roger Goodell. And I communicated with him on Thursday following the reinstatement in New York.
I can tell Dallas Cowboys fans this, as I noted on our 105.3 The Fan pregame show before Cowboys-at-Chargers: Josh went in feeling optimistic. He came out feeling optimistic.
And before, during and after, he is absolutely remorseful.
Josh, of course, was at the wheel when a horrific accident took the life of his friend and teammate Jerry Brown. He has spent time paying the price legally and has served his time. A cloud is lifting; his spirits are high, his fitness is good, and the dark place he was in a year ago is not so dark.
Josh has expressed to me a desire to help a football team that he's always viewed as his family. He believes he can be a key contributor here and that nothing short of Super Bowl contention must be the goal.
"We can win," Josh tells me. "And I can help."
But he's also motivated by something else: The chance to turn tragedy and remorse into something powerful, into a way to honor Jerry's mother and little daughter.
There are his physical efforts to return to football as he works out at Michael Johnson's facility with the help of ex-Cowboys lineman Andre Gurode. Josh will knock off the rust and be fine there. There is the acceptance inside the Cowboys, from Jerry Jones on down.
But what about the other challenges?
I hope Commissioner Goodell senses what I know about Josh. In fact, I hope he hears he words the same way I hear them when Brent says this to me.
"If I ever get a chance to right that wrong," Josh Brent has said to me, "I will do so."