Lax is exactly where I am in the PT. I’d rather take a nap. I definitely need the regimented follow through with a Personal Terrorist to keep me going. As for the ex, I’m fine as long as he doesn’t know where I live... otherwise he’d be over here bugging me all the time. He’s mad at my daughter for moving (hello...the Navy said “move” so you move) and he blames her for the divorce. All the same, much like the multitude of items that caused the divorce (which I will not mention), he refuses to accept responsibility for his role in the marital breakdown and his lack of any relationship with his children or grandchildren. He exists in a very angry and lonely world that I can’t be part of. I got out and am alive and happier being alone than I ever was being depressed with him and wanting to end it all. That’s not to say I won’t be civil if we are at a family function or something. I do take that high road, I just never want him getting the impression I’d come back to him. Never happen.