CouchCoach
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Gooooooooooooood Monday Morning Pops and I hope y'all had a fine Mothers Day. I am glad it's over, these holidays, birthdays and anniversary's put me in a weird mood and my emotions bubble under the surface. It's like one of those rumbling slow building storms with thunder in the distance. It never stormed but I did get a little out there in one of the threads and I find if I don't do that, the storm comes. And I get what would have been our 51st anniversary next Friday, the hits just keep on coming.
It is as if this forum serves as some kind of penance for me when the guilts come and I am pressed to acknowledge my mistakes of the past as a possible warning to others. I do not apologize for it, more just try to explain it because I am sure that is puzzles some that see me as a clown poster just screwing around. However, it does help me deal with the guilt of taking so much and so many people for granted.
If just one person reading that thread just stopped an extra moment yesterday to appreciate the day, drink it in and know this will not last forever and I am taking care of myself in the future, then it was worthwhile. However, I don't like myself like that, I do prefer to be the clown just screwing around. Being serious sucks.
Xelda, your words were perfect and "thank you for the gift of you" captured it perfectly. What a wonderful way to express it. And I thank you for your gift of laughter, I depend on you for that.
It is as if this forum serves as some kind of penance for me when the guilts come and I am pressed to acknowledge my mistakes of the past as a possible warning to others. I do not apologize for it, more just try to explain it because I am sure that is puzzles some that see me as a clown poster just screwing around. However, it does help me deal with the guilt of taking so much and so many people for granted.
If just one person reading that thread just stopped an extra moment yesterday to appreciate the day, drink it in and know this will not last forever and I am taking care of myself in the future, then it was worthwhile. However, I don't like myself like that, I do prefer to be the clown just screwing around. Being serious sucks.
Xelda, your words were perfect and "thank you for the gift of you" captured it perfectly. What a wonderful way to express it. And I thank you for your gift of laughter, I depend on you for that.