I have full on edema in my feet and ankles from booze, have burned another tattoo off my arm, I think I sent the pic to CLos or Coach, just a nasty burn... and sent several of you the pic of my son's letter to me. I have to quit drinking. Even the liquor store guy (Sean) told me I'm gonna die if I dont stop drinking. The liquor store guy.
I'm not up to two bottles a day like before, but I'm back to over one a day. In just a month and a half.
And it is always easier to say I am gonna quit while I booze. If I make it to 1pm without a drink, that's a victory. Pathetic. I have to change this, somehow.
Again, if y'all see me posting less, that means it's working. I will continue to check in here, but I really need to beat this monkey. My son's birthday is this Sunday, his mom and I are splitting the day, and then I have him to the following Friday. I dont want to drink the whole time he is here. I just can't. No one in either side of the family knows I'm drinking again. It's only a matter of time before they all find out. I ******* hate that my poor son has to cover for me. Disgusting.
******* hell.