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[Xelda]

Did you go to the hospital and get the antivenin stuff? Man, I hope so, that stuff is nasty.

Thank you, ksk. I didn't because I'd already had two shots this week. I thought about it, but found myself feeling sorry for myself and rubbing the wrong finger. I don't know what got me to be honest, I have a small hole in that finger but no swelling.

 

[Xelda]

I'm just happy you weren't bitten by one of those Randombabble snakes! I hear the side effects are boring and annoying at the same time! You were clearly bitten by a Damfunny snake...Have a Reese's Peanut Butter Cup, you earned it!

I thought it was a Snickers because you aren't you when your hungry or bitten by a one toothed snake. I'd better err on the side of caution and have both.

 

[Runwildboys]

I thought it was a Snickers because you aren't you when your hungry or bitten by a one toothed snake. I'd better err on the side of caution and have both.

Well, there are some people who are better off not being themselves...I don't mean you, of course. We all love our Xelda just the way you are!!

 

[CouchCoach]

I thought it was a Snickers because you aren't you when your hungry or bitten by a one toothed snake. I'd better err on the side of caution and have both.

Does what bit you look like this?

 

[Runwildboys]

Anyone heard from @GrammaJan lately?

 

[GrammaJan]

Anyone heard from @GrammaJan lately?

Hi

 

[Runwildboys]

Hi

Hey! How's everything going?

 

[GrammaJan]

Hey! How's everything going?

Not well… depressed a lot. Didn’t want to dump on you guys, but I sneak peeks in on the thread daily to keep up.

 

[Runwildboys]

Not well… depressed a lot. Didn’t want to dump on you guys, but I sneak peeks in on the thread daily to keep up.

Dump away, Jan. We're here for each other.

 

[GrammaJan]

Dump away, Jan. We're here for each other.

All the usual life b.s.

Job sucks.
Don’t like being alone (Sam is still around but I believe is still leaving. He’ll be going away for the month of July the end of this week. Not sure of anything after that).
Losing my favorite neighbors/friends (moving).
Can’t find my way out of debt.

Like I said… usual life b.s.
It’s just too much. I’m a good person that just wants to be a happy and can’t seem to make that happen.

 

[Runwildboys]

All the usual life b.s.

Job sucks.
Don’t like being alone (Sam is still around but I believe is still leaving. He’ll be going away for the month of July the end of this week. Not sure of anything after that).
Losing my favorite neighbors/friends (moving).
Can’t find my way out of debt.

Like I said… usual life b.s.
It’s just too much. I’m a good person that just wants to be a happy and can’t seem to make that happen.

I know the feeling, but I've just recently come to the realization that, while being alone sucks, I don't want anyone living with me. I like knowing where my stuff is, and I don't like feeling like I have to compromise.

As for debt, I just try not to buy anything I can't pay off on my credit card immediately. It means I don't have a lot of fun, but TV numbs my brain.

Hmm, maybe I'm not helping.

 

[GrammaJan]

I know the feeling, but I've just recently come to the realization that, while being alone sucks, I don't want anyone living with me. I like knowing where my stuff is, and I don't like feeling like I have to compromise.

As for debt, I just try not to buy anything I can't pay off on my credit card immediately. It means I don't have a lot of fun, but TV numbs my brain.

Hmm, maybe I'm not helping.

It’s just too hard to cope with alone sometimes

 

[Runwildboys]

It’s just too hard to cope with alone sometimes

No, it's never "too hard". Think of the good things about it, like never having to check with anyone else before you go somewhere. Always having what you want for dinner. Only cleaning your own messes. Not having to explain your browser history.

 

[Xelda]

No, it's never "too hard". Think of the good things about it, like never having to check with anyone else before you go somewhere. Always having what you want for dinner. Only cleaning your own messes. Not having to explain your browser history.

It just pavisses me off to have to clean up after myself. I knew better, why didn't I do it correctly? Oh that's right, because I can.

 

[Xelda]

All the usual life b.s.

Job sucks.
Don’t like being alone (Sam is still around but I believe is still leaving. He’ll be going away for the month of July the end of this week. Not sure of anything after that).
Losing my favorite neighbors/friends (moving).
Can’t find my way out of debt.

Like I said… usual life b.s.
It’s just too much. I’m a good person that just wants to be a happy and can’t seem to make that happen.

There's a simple answer that you may not like, but you need to take the time for it. As RuPaul says "If you don't love yourself, how can you expect anyone else to". There was cussing, but I'm saving that for when I'm mad.

It's a simple concept, but really difficult to achieve. You are the YOU that you've accepted considering the circumstances that have come before. I'm me for the exact same reasons. I had to be in order to survive. While hating the things forced on me, I still survived. I am here in defiance to many people. I had to accept that and try to appreciate it. If I get lonely, I come here for one thing. I speak deeper here and with a conscience. Y'all matter in my heart and go with me where ever I go. It doesn't replace a hug or a kiss, but I have a good sense of imagination. All the men look like Robert Redford in his pretty years wearing Dallas Cowboys game day uniforms. Take that Tom Brady! Oh, I didn't mean to hurt your feelings. Come back!

I got tired of being miserable with myself and started looking for the good in me. I started looking for the good in being alone. Like Runny said "No, it's never "too hard". Think of the good things about it, like never having to check with anyone else before you go somewhere. Always having what you want for dinner. Only cleaning your own messes. Not having to explain your browser history." That's legitimate and you don't have to strive to please someone else. Wait what about your browser history, Runny?

I have a whole house to myself and can decorate it any way I want. HGTV is not a channel, it's a way of life. Mostly I comment on their wrong choices and tell the happy residents how wrong they are to celebrate gray walls and minimalism. I watch old Westerns and make observations about the misplacement of windows for shooting bad guys and lack of curtains. I miss Paul James the gardener guy. He was goofy and explained yard stuff to me. Their Saturdays replaced cartoons for me. I still need cartoons and there's no one here to make fun of me for it or worse, over simplify the plot. I can howl at The Three Stooges without eye rolls. Life is good.

If I've got a good sized mess somewhere and don't want to fool with it at the moment, I don't have to. I usually complain to myself about it, but I'm good at getting over it. Every closet in the house is mine!!!!!!!!! It's a small victory, but I can celebrate it.

I'm not there, but I'm a lot closer than I've ever been. It was all a decision to find the good in me, to celebrate and accept myself. I'm not where I want to be, but I can take comfort in the process. I'd give myself a big hug right now, but I'm not in the mood. Find joy within yourself and learn to accept yourself as is. One day at a time in baby steps.

 

[Xelda]

Does what bit you look like this?

That's him! The bottom one!

 

[CouchCoach]

All the usual life b.s.

Job sucks.
Don’t like being alone (Sam is still around but I believe is still leaving. He’ll be going away for the month of July the end of this week. Not sure of anything after that).
Losing my favorite neighbors/friends (moving).
Can’t find my way out of debt.

Like I said… usual life b.s.
It’s just too much. I’m a good person that just wants to be a happy and can’t seem to make that happen.

You are a good person but that doesn’t mean that will make you happy.

Some of that is passive action, Sam moving and your friends.
Debt is usually an active action caused by our desire to have instant happiness only to discover the real price we have to pay. It is a chain around our neck with differing weights attached to it but we can release that incrementally but we must commit to and adhere to a plan. Progress brings relief. And executing a plan is liberating.

Being alone and lonely are not the same and I can handle alone by contrasting that with being around someone I don’t want to be around. Being lonely when around someone is a strange feeling.

I play games with myself when out in public. I single out people I am glad I am not with and after a while, not lonely any longer. In fact, can’t wait to get home to my solitude.

Jan, you found Sam after you lost your man and you will find another after Sam, just have to endure the space in between.

Job is active action. If you can’t change the parts that make you unhappy, maybe it’s time to change the job?

Two things I have found to break the lonely spell, music and talking to myself aloud. But the trick with music is no memories, all new music that you only associate with the music itself. Occupy your mind with new things that not only make you think but keep you in the present.

I do not just talk to myself, I have conversations and if there were any witnesses, they would deem me certifiable. Especially the making myself laugh out loud. As long as I am not a danger to others, a little insanity is a healthy thing.

I agree with Runny, we are here for the good, the bad and the ugly because we share, we do not bring each other down. You have friends that do not judge and care about you and while we are not there with you, you are not alone.

 

[GrammaJan]

You are a good person but that doesn’t mean that will make you happy.

Some of that is passive action, Sam moving and your friends.
Debt is usually an active action caused by our desire to have instant happiness only to discover the real price we have to pay. It is a chain around our neck with differing weights attached to it but we can release that incrementally but we must commit to and adhere to a plan. Progress brings relief. And executing a plan is liberating.

Being alone and lonely are not the same and I can handle alone by contrasting that with being around someone I don’t want to be around. Being lonely when around someone is a strange feeling.

I play games with myself when out in public. I single out people I am glad I am not with and after a while, not lonely any longer. In fact, can’t wait to get home to my solitude.

Jan, you found Sam after you lost your man and you will find another after Sam, just have to endure the space in between.

Job is active action. If you can’t change the parts that make you unhappy, maybe it’s time to change the job?

Two things I have found to break the lonely spell, music and talking to myself aloud. But the trick with music is no memories, all new music that you only associate with the music itself. Occupy your mind with new things that not only make you think but keep you in the present.

I do not just talk to myself, I have conversations and if there were any witnesses, they would deem me certifiable. Especially the making myself laugh out loud. As long as I am not a danger to others, a little insanity is a healthy thing.

I agree with Runny, we are here for the good, the bad and the ugly because we share, we do not bring each other down. You have friends that do not judge and care about you and while we are not there with you, you are not alone.

Thanks, Coach

 

[Montanalo]

All the usual life b.s.

Job sucks.
Don’t like being alone (Sam is still around but I believe is still leaving. He’ll be going away for the month of July the end of this week. Not sure of anything after that).
Losing my favorite neighbors/friends (moving).
Can’t find my way out of debt.

Like I said… usual life b.s.
It’s just too much. I’m a good person that just wants to be a happy and can’t seem to make that happen.

I am so sorry to here this, Jan. I really wish I had a magic elixir for you.

I don't know if you ever seen the following quote from Robin Williams:

I used to think that the worst thing in life was to end up alone. It's not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel alone

It has stuck with since I first read it... as a reminder that being alone is not the same thing as lonely.

 

[kskboys]

It just pavisses me off to have to clean up after myself. I knew better, why didn't I do it correctly? Oh that's right, because I can.

Did the mess have something to do w/ your browser history?